Known as rambling rose in just about every religious group I found myself, I started my journey a very long time ago. Always searching, always questioning I did not know that what I really wanted was to move past belief and hope to that sensation of knowing. With all my might, I tried to read the Bible. Others shared of their grand experience of understanding the Word (as they claimed) while I looked on wondering what was the fuss. They told me I was cursed and prayed desperate prayers for me to see what they saw. I gave much in order to receive, as I was taught, only to feel more and more empty. I stumbled onto messianic groups and fell in love with pesach and sukkot and turned my home into a synagogue coping with the rejection in these circles. But then I wanted even more. What is wrong with me, I agonized wanting so badly to settle somewhere. But the hunger prevented any chance of that. I concluded that I would never belong.
And then chaos erupted in my world. I joined a kabbalah group but there were many strings attached. Mostly red! Disillusioned and alone again the search continued.
A year later I saw a video in which I saw RAV Laitman for the first time. Then came Tony's video on perceiving reality.
Thank you Bnei Baruch for this desire. Thank you RAV and every friend at BB for being the place where this rambling rose may well settle and finally get that sense of the Creator and eventually be able to say "I love you" and know what it means. Arvut
Love is not reception of pleasure from somebody; it is giving to the object of love. The phrase "Love thy neighbour" means to fill another with what he desires. It is an external expression of your attitude to him, which is called "love." Love is when you fulfil another. You begin to feel what your beloved wants and by fulfilling him/her you express your attitude to him/her, which is called "love." If you receive, it is called "egoistical reception of pleasure." There is also a way to express love when receiving. When you precisely feel another, his love for you and understand that if you receive from him you will actually please him, then you may use reception for the sake of giving.RABBI MICHAEL LAITMAN
Step inside ministers of the most High Gracious and benevolent is He to His creation Come with your vessels of light Light from the beloved in His quest to bestow
Seat yourselves ministers of the most high My head I must hang in shame and torment Look not too long at the flaws your light will show Tender your heart while your message is brought
Accept this token of my gratitude My desire now spread before you in this feast Symbols of my yearning Displays of my lack
Be not fooled by my tears Be not dismayed at my great pain Steady your eye on my longing And incline your ear to my song for the Beloved
Now I shall sit here with you in my inner chamber Gazing at the images you illumine As many as the seeds of a pomegranate Not one of them escapes your light of correction
Pardon if I turn from this blinding light for a while My desire grows faint with the message you bring Must I face the grotesque image of my resentment? And the ancient giant of rejection upon which it feeds
No! Ministers of the most high Stay and let me see beyond this veil of fear For further beyond this pain The light waits for me in earnest
Dim your light ministers I beg you! For that corner which you illumine is filled with regret Regret and shame and monsters of rebuke But for the sake of the Beloved, only dim your light
Feast yourselves ministers and stay at my table See now the souls of my friends have joined They have seen your light and tasted my tears And our table grows in bounty with their desire
Loneliness and isolation, there they cower Retreating now, but how they made me forget The desires of these friends that I must absorb For as one we shall attain the beloved
Turn up your lights dear ministers Hide not from me the things that pain and torment See how my desire has grown What is this trouble compared to the power of love
Farewell ministers of the most high Todah for grace and todah for truth See now how the bride works here in this chamber In a little while she shall be ready
Farewell ministers of the most high Farewell with your lights of truth and grace In time we shall be spotless And as one before the beloved
Farewell ministers of the most high Speak tenderly to my love Let Him know that I have welcomed you for His sake And assure Him I am making haste
Thank you for your encouragement during moments when I have lack of desire to work, during heaviness of the work. Now I am recovering thanks to you and friends of the World Kli. But like you said, this lack of desire, heaviness in the work is an opportunity, and a demands from the World Kli should be taken as fuel to rise above the heaviness.
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There is a build a bear location in South Africa too! Well, actually more than one! Take a look at http://www.buildabear.com to find out if there is one near you. And yes.. they are sooo cute!!!
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Karin and Eddy
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Mi edad es 41 años y estudiando cabala tengo alrededor de 4 años
Un fuerte abrazo P.D. disculpa que te escriba en español, pero no hablo ingles y no quiero escribirte algo incorrecto.
Hi Michelene! It is nice of you to say hi. It gives me more strength to work on the goal. I'll have to learn to divide my time for more dissemination work and studies.
Here is an Intention for the Kli,
What is bestowal? This state can be described as the following: as a person discovers the desires of his friend and those desires determine all of his desires and thoughts, he then begins to work with all of his mind and heart, with everything that he has, in order to serve the desires of his friends - this is called “bestowal” and “love”, this is called “to love your friend as yourself”. Perhaps this is how you could describe what is called “to love your neighbor as yourself”, which is “bestowal”. When I plug into the hissaron (needs, deficit) of my friend, they become bigger than my own, for example, I have only one pillow, but I gladly give it away, and only with gladness. I run to him and give it away, regardless of the fact that I need it just as much as he does. In other words, his desires prevail over my own and they control mine. (From the Article of February 26, 2008)
All very well Michelene but ARVUT is only among men... never us women :))
and please fill me in asap about some members of the group, I really would like to post the Getting to know the BB Kli about SA on sailing. Just a few words who is already doing what, because it all develops very fast and changes....much love and thank yous....bracha
I was just thinking of sending you an e-mail. I wanted to ask you if you were involved in a dissemination project yet? I know about setting up the SA Kli. What I was considering you for is what Trevor and I are involved in....commenting for Rav's personal blog and disseminmating throughout the internet in a specific way. With thousands of students, we actually only have a meager percentage of them engaged in projects. Just look at the BB Americas callout from Markos, a management team member and Board member, who oversees the Laitman.com project. You should be getting BB Americas stuff, are you not? I am looking for committed people for this project. People to be project managers. Those I am involved with...certain friends that I have a level of confidence in, I approach. BB needs friends who will jump into these projects. Anyway, it's a thought and it is always a pleasure to hear from you, read your uplifting words! I do see you are busy. That's great! Hope to hear from you soon...ever drawing the Light that Reforms! Stay well my good friend!
My dearest Sister,
We came by to give you a big hug from the both of us! Hope you have a great weekend and don't forget the childrens lesson by Rav this afternoon :o)
Love, Eddy and Karin
144. There Is a Certain People I heard on the night of Purim, after reading the Megillah, 1950
“There is a certain people scattered abroad and dispersed among the peoples.” Haman said that in his view, we will succeed in destroying the Jews because they are separated from one another; hence, our force against them will certainly prevail, as it causes separation between man and God. And the Creator will not help them anyway, since they are separated from Him. This is why Mordecai went to correct that flaw, as it is explained in the verse, “the Jews gathered,” etc., “to gather themselves together, and to stand for their life.” This means that they had saved themselves by uniting.
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